Tomorrow is my birthday!

So, tomorrow I will officially be another year older. Wow! I'm still having my "year end crisis" that I typically have around my birthday. So, I made Husband go out and buy me a scale for my birthday. Yes, it was my idea. As mentioned before, my pants have been tight, and my current scale only shows a 2 pound increase, which I know can't be the case. So, Husband bought the new one for me, and sure enough it showed a whopping 4 pound increase. Somehow, though, I don't believe either scale. I believe I've added about 5-10 pounds, but the scales don't agree.

And, the next item I want for my birthday is a full length mirror. I want to see where the added fat has decided to bond on me. I know, I'm weird. My thought is this: if I see just how fat I am in the mirror, maybe I won't eat as much. This theory or idea seems to be working with the scale. I'm already down a few pounds. And, when I get the full length mirror, I'm sure I'll be horrified by the sight and stop eating such large, Sumo sized portions. So, wish me luck!

I know I seem overly consumed with being fat even though I have a normal BMI (body mass index), weight, still fit into a size 3/4, and can run 13.1 miles faster than ever. But, my clothes don't fit the same and I can no longer squeeze my fat ass into my size 2 jeans without causing bodily harm to myself. And, my waist is definitely thicker, and I don't like it. I don't feel comfortable in my clothes or my skin. So, I plan to start eating better and less. I'm only 4 foot 10 inches, but I eat the same amount as a grown man. So, I know the additional weight is self induced. I don't blame anyone except myself for shoveling in the extra calories that my small frame obviously doesn't need.

So, I hope my scale, mirror and tight clothes will be enough deterrent for me to stop feeding my fat face!

Wish me luck and Happy Birthday to me!